Alcoholism

In all honesty, I drink, I will not lie about it, but I am trying to get out of it, unfortunately I am also a streamer on both YouTube at https://gaming.youtube.com/reddirtdownload and Twitch at https://www.twitch.tv/farmerboyjon but there is an under current of streaming, alcohol.

A prevalent streamer who likes to drink in stream is Lanai Gara at https://www.twitch.tv/ms_vixen on twitch. I am not opposed to drinking, but for me there are certain limits, mainly when it comes to our younger generation who can be easily influenced by those who are older and can bypass many rules within the internet easily.

Of course there are those such as https://www.twitch.tv/giantdoctor wh promote alcoholism and depravity along with miss vixen. Honestly, when one hasn’t learned is one thing, but when one support such depravity, it is another to completely support it.

I will make a video on this later on this.

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I Just Don’t Know

I just do not know anymore, I simply and honestly do not know. I know where I need to go to make money, but then get stopped because people say they will help but i ends up being what they want and not what I need. When I continue to go about my own way they seem to want to stop me, and at this point I do not know what to do, either stick with family or just go on my own.

I have always advocated being independent but i end up being more dependent on others than I should be, and I wish people would be clear with me on what they will and will not do. Make up your mind, and let me live.

True Strength

What is true strength? Is it ones own physical strength? Maybe spiritual strength? Could possibly be mental or emotional strength? It is all of this combined, to be able to use everything you have, be able to muster every ounce of energy to get through obstacles. To be beaten down, torn up, and destroyed, then coming out the other side, still able to move forward. You are as strong as you want, as tough as the obstacles you go through. Your friends and family can help, pick you up when your down, but being to accept help when you know you need it, but in the end getting back out there on your own and to continue.

True strength comes both with in, and on the outside. To be able to tell the world that no matter what it says about you, that you will survive, flourish, and be on your way in your own life. Some of us must do this with little or no help, others may have help only of the time, but we all endure the same obstacles, just in different settings.

Be encouraged that no matter what happens, we are all in this together, and together we must help each other. We may be alone physically, but not spiritually, mentally, nor emotionally, we are all in it together. Together, we can make a difference, but individually we must make the choice to be positive or negative, so choose, and go forth in full force, and do not stop.

Legionaire

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Confused Emotional Learning

I was raised to be a man, to deal with pain, emotionally, mentally, physically as something to ignore, because if I felt pain I was weak, inferior, a mere boy. Overcoming the pain was built within as in many young boys becoming men. girls and women were meant to feel pain, to cry when sad, to have a need to lean on someone. If I were to be this “Spartan” man, I was meant to be tough when called for, polite when needed, and gentle with a woman.

At 33, I have learned one thing, its all a bunch of bullshit. We all have feelings, we all need to cry on someones shoulder, to have time alone, we all need to feel and to know someone cares. It is human to have emotion, to feel, to be felt, to know someone, somewhere, has dealt with what you are dealing with. Every emotion is unique to the person, each is different in its own right, but we have felt something similar.

Don’t be afraid to reach out, let someone help you. If you are having an emotional moment, something that tells you society says you’re not suppose to have, ignore society and go deal with it. Society can be a bunch of pricks, I know I can at times, but ignore society and be yourself. Society is always in flux, so never let it dictate to you how you feel, or should feel.

 

 

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TYR vs LOKI from the poem “Lokasenna”

A little something that came across my Facebook. Going to be sharing at https://www.facebook.com/RedDirtDownload/

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TYR vs LOKI
from the poem “Lokasenna”

Tyr spake:
“Of the heroes brave is Freyr the best
Here in the home of the gods;
He harms not maids nor the wives of men,
And the bound from their fetters he frees.”

Loki spake:
“Be silent, Tyr! For between two men
Friendship thou ne’er couldst fashion;
Fain would I tell how Fenrir once
Thy right hand rent from thee.”

Tyr spake:
“My hand do I lack, but Hrothvitnir thou,
And the loss brings longing to both;
Ill fares the wolf who shall ever await
In fetters the fall of the gods.”

Loki spake:
40. “Be silent, Tyr! |For a son with me
Thy wife once chanced to win;
Not a penny, methinks, wast thou paid for the wrong,
Nor wast righted an inch, poor wretch.”

Art by John Bauer (1911) is clearly the inspiration for Jack Kirby’s Marvel Thor in the 1960s!

 

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The Nephilim Returns

Started this out in my head as a “Legionaire” post, but turned it to the coming of the nephilim in the book I have written mainly because thats how it ended up working out in my head.

 

The grass below his feet feels damp with early morning dew, a fog rolls down in the valley below. A sky hued with pink, orange and lavender, the sun rising over the horizon to the east. Birds chirp their morning song while splashing in nearby puddles. Mornings were always his favorite, always bringing a new day and new adventure. But this morning was different, for today he was going to come back into the world. For centuries he tucked himself away in the forested reaches of Finland, nestled in his hiding spot. Today though, it will be his coming out, again.

He fought against evil before, never letting evil come upon this world, but he grew weary, so he hid. The world needed to change, to learn, to grow, and so he hid and let it do so. Watching war, famine, disease and all sorts of evil ravage the land, he hoped, knew, that it would endure. Today however, it needed a hero again, it needed him.

As the sun crested over the eastern skies, he retreated to his modest home, and began to prepare. Knowing today would come, he meditated, trained, and prepared, knowing that everything was expected of him. His descendant, leaving the USAF and joining the group started by the Archangel Michael, would need his help eventually. It would be difficult to say the least, it always was for Nephilim, but now was the time. Today, it would begin.

 

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American Presidential Race, 2016

To anyone watching the presidential race in America this year, 2016, will see a “diverse” crowd of people. Hillary Clinton with her secret server, Bernie watering his money tree, Trump with his titans of business, Cruz coming on his big horse, and Rubio bringing his Canadian cold.

In all honesty, here’s the point, whatever they say, look behind the scenes and into their past, Bernie is a quack job that will just tax everyone, Hillary is a crook and will probably be less transparent than Obama, Trump is friendly with the royal family of Saudi Arabia, Cruz is a big cowboy with big plans, and Rubio is a republican line puller.

None of them are for the people, they speak big, but in the end, the people suffer. We need actual Americans to make actual decisions, not the elite political few, or pretenders who try to convince you they are on the outside. This year, when you vote, do so with a clear mind, knowing that your vote not only affects you, but it affects the rest of us a well, 365 million plus people will depend on you, me and all of us to make the right choice. Do whats right, not what the political jargon convinces you of.

 

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